What happened?

This will be a quick one.  Just wanted to write something down so I can remember it later.

I started working for UNF as a work study student in Spring of 2002.  It’s now Fall of 2009, and while I’m no longer a work study student, I’m still working there.  In 2006, I graduated and became a benefited employee.  Before I graduated, I had visions of using my Criminal Justice degree to work in corrections.  I strongly believed (and still do) in the power of the correctional system if it is done right and I wanted to be a part of that.  Shortly after graduation, I realized that unless I wanted to move out of Jacksonville, the chances were slim of getting the kind of work that I wanted.  I did an internship at the Hubbard House and was fairly certain that I could have gotten a job there but the pay was not enough given my student loan and credit card debt that I had accumulated in college.  So I stayed at UNF and got a wonderful job in Enrollment Services.  UNF owns a fairly large piece of real estate in my heart so the last 3 years I have really enjoyed.  But lately I have been wondering what happened to my dreams from college?

I wanted to help people and while my job now is to support staff and “help” them in a technical fashion, my job is not to help people with their lives.  I used to fill that void with volunteering but then after Quincy and now my grandmother, it’s gotten next to impossible to find the time.  So I find myself asking today “what happened, Annie?”  Did I sell out for money?  Did I just take the easy road?  While some of those answers may be yes, I am comforted by the fact that I do love UNF very much.  I always say I’m “UNF home-grown.”  But as I go on, I am beginning to feel that what I do doesn’t matter.  I don’t want to feel that way…

So I volunteered myself last week to translate a child assesment packet for Hubbard House.  It’s supposed to be translated to Spanish, needless to say my husband was upset about that…lol.  It will take me quite a while to finish this project BUT that’s what I can do for now until I can find more time to give of myself the way that I used to.  🙂

P.S.  Let me reiterate that I love working at UNF.  I don’t intend to leave anytime soon.  lol

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